I forgot what day it was / Last night / All the stars were somewhere / I couldn’t see or be / In the summer night / I wanted all walls to melt away / All walls to be flowers / I could walk through / Like opening a curtain / Or briefly separating / A wave from itself / Does the moon have a scent / Does moonlight carry / The narrative I need / To understand my own / Am I really wise / If I’m living like this / Sitting here / With my antenna up all the time / Craving signals / Completely different from mine / What does the alien hear / When it passes through / This atmosphere / Frozen leftovers thawing / On the counter

I leave behind every room I ever lived in / Windy but not rainy / A leaf tumbles down the street / I didn’t break / The bones of this culture / The hot wax / Pools and pools / Beneath someone’s / Anthem flame / There are bluebirds / In the mirror / It’s up to me / Just me and me / And me / And a hurricane / Fizzling into a memory / And all the news / Wants to tell me / Is what the / Insurance policy / Should cover / And volunteers / At the food bank / Putting cans in boxes / I’d like to volunteer / To the cosmos / But it already sent me / To a landscape called / A truck and a road / And me searching / For a signal

I’m the opposite / Of an apocalypse / I’m both Gemini faces / Laughing / Or pondering / Or yearning / If this dusty road led somewhere / If this truck was mine / If I knew this song / What if I scrambled this poem / Each line a signal / To be decoded / It might say / I’m an impossible anarchist / On the edge of nowhere / Which is classified / By civilization / As nowhere/ I’m the punk moving ink / In order to make shapes / Like words / My body asks / Do you feel better yet / So I can feel better / There’s a sign that says / Eight miles to somewhere / I guessed it was Tuesday / It felt good to be right

I choose to remember / As fields soften / For me / I lost pornography / But luckily I’m creative / In the quick nightmare / We saw / The tornado headed right for / Our glass house / Red-orange lights / Spiraling all through it / Like it was a / Chaotic Christmas tree / It pushed right up / Against the glass wall / Bent it but didn’t / Break it / I must have said / Lord Jesus Christ / At least 20 times / Now I’m thinking of / A pond filled / With tadpoles / I want you / Not to be afraid / To walk through / The door / Leading to the door / Trekking through / The maze of my heart / Pulsing with the beat / Of my appetite

The earth spins / So slow / But not just / For scientific reasons / Should we make up / A cult that / Believed / The earth could / Float away / From the solar system / I’m not exasperated / Anymore / Because they don’t / Know who I am / Space is full / Of creatures / I’m on a mission / To be absurd / And it’s the secret / I leave / Tucked into / Your soul pocket / The summer leaves / Dance until / They sweat mystically / The screen goes black / I read stories / About good sex / All night / I was the most / Touched / By the story / Where she said / We had a deep / Conversation / Next to the fire / He made

The news asks / Do you have a / Vanilla sex life? / I can’t forget / This important line / Flying through my sky brain / Like an airplane message / You have to be a millionaire / To afford a can opener / I lost my angular angel / While refusing to skip / Anymore this summer / And broke out with / An internal ache / That couldn’t point / In any direction / Like a compass arrow / Doing a dizzy dance / Yet I remained perplexed / But it wasn’t because / I run away too much / It’s because when I run away / I don’t run far enough / When I see stairs / Going down the side / Of a building / Like Z’s / I think of art

When I walk by a TV / I hear someone say / Outsmart the system / By getting a credit card / My mind is on / The floral edginess / Of oblivion / Where I need to play more / Follow the frogs / Who use their hips to hop / And the night / Always stays enchanted / Even in winter / When I feel so far / From the sun / My face is not for / The public / The public is not for / My face / The public runs / On credit / The frogs run on / Their playful hip-hopping / I saw the clouds part / To expose the moon / Like a cream heart / Someone drew / For no one on a wall / At the bottom it said / For no one / Which made me / Chuckle like a stray star

I’m not in Georgia or Maine / I’m not on the sunny West Coast / Or in the dusty Midwest / I’m a flock of feathers / Looking for a / Naked bird to keep warm / The news tells me / When not to wear eye contacts / Some people in public / Might say my vision / Is blurred by magic / That keeps me unemployed / And unable to get / A credit card / Do I walk to the stop sign / Or through the stop sign / Or around the stop sign / Five times and wish / For a Clydesdale / To appear from divine / Pink clouds to gallop / Me away from / Logical pollution / Tag the tree by the street / And you’ll always be safe

I lucked into / A super-juicy Valencia orange / I crossed the path / After the rainstorm / Then crossed it again / The sky hiding behind / Wet clouds / The miles in either direction / A measurement / Of physical distance / But it’s all trees / And earth / The limitlessness / Of honey moments / Keeps me still / Only temporarily / I’m still learning how to be A / Even though I’ve been A / All my life / I’ll always be looking / For the truer A within / Forming under so much / Cosmic pressure / The A of yesterday / Not unlike a shell / I found on the psychic beach / While the A of tomorrow / Cruises the wild current

Am I afraid of / All this surrender / I haven’t surrendered
enough / Do you have to / Come unhinged / To show your genius / Where does the wheel / Spin me tonight / A is like the apple / Hanging from a heavy branch / Undetected by the / Lazy horse / Who snacked in the garden / Left behind by / Lazy utopian people / Who left the horse / With silver braids / To be what she / Always wanted to be / A fairy tale horse / A is like the soul / Watching that horse / Walk through a meadow / After a rainstorm / A is like the shy cloud / On the horizon / A is like quick-witted laughter / A is like a busted lock

I’m still thinking / Of how I came to be / This anonymous woman / How I started out / As an anonymous girl / Never aware of her / Artistic imagination / Chasing the poet wind / From season to season / Year to year / Until I realized / The wind flows / Around me / And if I just stand still / The wind and I are / The same / Restless but free-spirited / The cosmic perspective / Is the secret / The way I turn / The kaleidoscope / Each time I look into it / With all of my being / Turn it and turn it / Amazed / That it never looks the same / But it’s the same as me / Shifting ever-abstractly